ask me about my uterus

I very recently started a new book that I am obsessed with. Ask me about my uterus is a deep dive into all things endo. It’s written from the first hand perspective of Abby Norman who re lives painful moments of her personal life for the gain of others. Abby is amazing and smart and I wish she was my friend so that we could talk about endo and her book all day long. Ok she might think that’s weird so it may be a short friendship… ANYWAY 

Within the first few pages, Abby tells a story eerily similar to my own. She clings to her middle in the shower feeling like her pains is “everywhere and nowhere” she goes to the hospital where her pain is not taken seriously. Her male doctor is positive she’s pregnant or has an STD or a UTI. Let me tell you the pain from a UTI is NOTHING like the pain from endo. But of course in both of our experiences, this was what we were told. We both left with a prescription and nothing else. We both ended up back at the hospital a number of times. And we both finally had someone do their job and try to help us. Someone who finally validated our pain and attempted to give us relief. 

Abby writes, “A Women in pain was presumed to be lying. Guilty until proven innocent, as it were” that’s how I’ve always felt. That I wasn’t allowed to be in pain. That I wouldn’t be taken seriously. That my pain wasn’t bad enough to count. 

I’m not even halfway through this book but it’s already my favourite. I’ve never cried so much, or related so much to a book in my life. But this feels like Abby is speaking to me and validating me and my pain. I am so glad to have found it. If you or someone you know struggles with endometriosis or really any chronic pain issues as a women, please have them read this. And if you really want to try to understand a loved one I would encourage you to read it too. You won’t be disappointed. 

To Abby, thank you for your honesty, your bravery, and your devotion to women’s health. Your story will help me and so many women to feel seen, heard, and believed. 

More to come on this I promise

xo jess

I Weigh…

I weigh…

Okay so I will never tell you, or anyone else what the number on the scale is. Honestly, you probably won’t meet that many people who would.  I hate scales. I am literally afraid of them. The last time I went to the doctor I closed my eyes when she weighed me. I didn’t want to see it. I wish I could say that I didn’t want to see the number because I don’t care and that the number on a scale doesn’t define me. But thats not true. Since grade 3, that number has totally and completely determined the way that I define myself. My size has also been the first thing that I notice and think about every day of my life. I’ve never been small. I’ve always been overweight and I have always let that term and those numbers be in charge of how I feel about myself. Unfortunately we live in a world that puts weight, size, beauty, and all things superficial above the rest. What I weigh means more to me and everyone else than anything else about me. The craziest thing is that I am able to see other women for so much more than how they look. Even when I am noticing someone else’s appearance, I think about how perfect and beautiful they are. I wonder how any of them could ever have moments of self doubt or insecurity.

But what I Weigh is so much more than a number, at least that’s what Jameela Jamil is telling me, and everyone else, with her latest instagram movement.

I Weigh is an incredible movement started by the talented and beautiful Jameela Jamil. You might recognize her from the TV series “The Good Place”. She started this movement called “I Weigh”  after reading comments on one of the Kardashian’s instagram posts. After reading these comments where people were deciding Kim’s worth based on her size rather than her success, Jameela decided to take a stand. Why is is that what women weigh is so ridiculously controversial, and for some reason so important to people? Jameela decided that women “weigh” more than their number on the scale. That their “weight” is comprised of so many things above and beyond that sometimes dreaded number. Jameela’s mission statement on instagram reads “…I Weigh movement for us to feel valuable and see how amazing we are, and look beyond the flesh on our bones”.

There are so many people all over the world that probably let a number decide a lot of things for them wether it’s the scale, the size of your jeans, or something else. To stop this number obsession Jameela, and now hundreds of other women, have banded together to see change. The “I Weigh” movement features women posting photos of themselves with words surrounding them. The words share all of the many things that make up our “weight” as people. Things like being a mother, a sister, a daughter, a hard worker, determined, motivated, funny, loyal, kind, and so much more. I whole heartedly believe that we should embrace this movement and each person reading this should participate. Follow the verified @I_weigh account on instagram and use #iweigh in your posts.

There are so many things that we need to work on as humans, but one of them is seeing people for more than their size. While this movement has been really women centred, I think this is just as true for all genders. The things we do and the people we are carry so much more weight than just our bodies.

Here’s my “I Weigh” photo 👇🏼

Extra shout out to my friend Lisa for posting her own “I Weigh” photo and introducing me to this movement! Follow her on Instagram @lisaschnitzler she’s amazing and the cutest

xo jess